Love Deferred or Phoenix Rising?


There are so many things that I can say about the VMAs and Kanye West's totally inappropriate behaviour and Beyonce's gracious endeavour. However, I am sure that everyone has heard enough about that. So I will digress and talk about something a little more personal.

When I went to Atlanta in July for the conference I was in a very strange state. If you follow my blog, you may remember the Whitney vs Melonie Daniels (revisited) post that gave a little insight about what was going on. I try not to vent too much information about friends and loved ones here regardless of the situation. But just know that I felt as if I was done wrong in a situation with some friends who have since apologized. In Atlanta I was kind of still dealing with it but in the midst of all of that, I met this guy who intrigued me unto infatuation.

We exchanged numbers but as things go, we really didn't stay in contact too much. We had brief conversations here and there but nothing serious. Well, a couple of weeks ago he called again and the tone was much different. Let's just say that we went 0 to 60 in no time. I thoroughly enjoy him. His aura, disposition, manners, talk, and essence allures me. It really has me wondering if this is the one. And am actually catching feelings for him and he says the same about me.

I even started writing this piece;
"I was in the blinding fog trying to figure out who are my real friends and loved ones. Not quite inured to the betrayal that I felt, I made my way finding each silhouette. Gazing upon their countenance to discern if they be intrinsic friend or foe. But there was one silhouette that did not seem to belong. I could neither decipher this person's reasoning for being there nor their role. But as the white fog lifted revealing the truth, there you stood.... "

Yeah, I know. People say that I fall way too fast. Well, on Saturday we talked for a minute but started really talking about the distance thing. I knew it was bound to come up, it had to. I take it, from our conversation, that he is having second thoughts about falling for someone so far away. ATL from here is more than a notion, baby, to think about just jumping on the road. If it was like 4 hours, then we could see each other several weekends a month but being 16 hours away.... well... The tone in his voice was a little defeated. And I can't say that I blame him or fault him. I was kind of feeling the same way myself. Now we are at this fork in the road and am not sure what to think about it.

2 comments:

Cocoa Rican September 14, 2009 8:17 AM  

Like I've told BD, nothing that's meant for you can be taken away - even by time and space. Hang in there and be comforted by that.

That Dude Right There September 18, 2009 5:07 PM  

Ty, I was in a long-distance relationship a year from 2002-2003. We saw each other at least once a month during that time. Sometimes 2 or 3 times a month. But in the end it fizzled because he didn't want to do it anymore. I was willing and able to continue.

If both parties want to keep it going, then it can surely last. But if once partner isn't trying, it will fail.

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