Happy Birthday To Me

Yes, today is my birthday and I feel fabulous. I am thankful to God for being around as long as I have especially when I haven't always made the wisest decisions.


I don't have any plans for tonight but will spend Sunday evening (after church) with some friends as we chew (eat). Antonio bought me a nice little outfit (printed t and jeans) that I am loving. I got a sweet hook-up from Derrick and Pei. Derrick works at the apple store and got me a sweet hook up on my MacBook. And Pei hooked me up with Final Cut Studio 2 for free. This software bundle cost more that what I paid for the laptop. The laptop came with iLife09 which has this application that will allow you to take a photo and select a person's face and give their name. It will then go through all of your pics and assign that name to all the pictures that have that person's face in it. You can then do a search anytime and pull up all of that person's pics. It is awesome. I am so in geek heaven right now. I can't wait to play with it a bit more. Especially since I've been doing some work for Nhojj.

I will be sure to post plenty of pics from this weekend and from more works.

Jensen Atword at Verve #3/ Rock Band

This has been a phenomenal event and growing so fast. The next Verve event is on February 18. See the flyer below for more information. You can see one of my previous posts here to get an idea of the event.


















Rock On!!!
Saturday, I went over to Derrick and Edwin's house. We ended up playing their Rock Band. It was too much fun and Edwin's niece got such a kick out of it that she had to video us.

The Power of Life and Death is in the Tongue

Some of you know that's familiar with this phrase know that it is biblical. It is something that I truly believe. I don't know why God, in His infinite wisdom, placed such a strong emphasis on speaking things but it is seen throughout the bible. Throughout the whole creation process God spoke things into existence (Genesis 1). The same goes for us. If we have goals, dreams or desires, we can speak them into existence. Professionals will often call this the pygmalion effect or self-fulfilling prophecy. These basically say, for example, that if you tell a child that they are smart, beautiful, or talented then they will be. If you begin to tell that same child that they are stupid, ignorant, or ugly, then they will be. Now of course, that isn't an unconscious death but is the death of positivity in that child's life.

With that being said, why am I so afraid of saying that I'm in a relationship? My first thoughts are to say that it is because I'm not sure if this will really work between him and I. So, I don't want to tell anyone and make it seem like I'm just going through boyfriends like crazy. However, I don't think that this is really the reason. I say this because in some of my past relationships I felt the same way going into it but yet told others. I walked boldly into the relationship. Why haven't I done that for him when he has been more than accommodating and working hard to make this happen? Is it because this one seems like he isn't going anywhere? I mean, he's not going anywhere. I've tried to shake him twice. But getting rid of him is as useless as sweeping the dirt on the ground trying to get rid of the dust, he is still there. Am I one of those people who claim that they want a nice, honest and sincere person but when they come along, they don't want them? Am I scared that this one is too close to being for real? Am I just not ready to give up my single life? By not saying anything about it, acknowledging it and walking in it, am I contributing to the demise of this relationship?

Busy Weekend

This last weekend was a total blur but satisfying at the same time. I actually decided to host a dinner at my house on Sunday. I know.... I waited long enough, right!?! Anyway I spent ALL day cleaning and prepping on Saturday to the point that I just about passed out by Saturday night. Went to church on Sunday and then came home to finish cooking. It was just a few of us because I don't think my place is conducive for entertaining a large group but for the six of us was perfect. Germono, Emory, Derrick, Antonio and Edwin came over and we chewed baby. I fixed some jambalaya, sautéed veggies, biscuits, curry goat, beans and peach cobbler. After that we played the Wii, of course. Especially since Antonio bought me another game.... the American Idol game. It was hilarious. If for nothing else to hear Derrick singing "I'm Every Woman" with his bass voice. I felt like an ass later because I totally forgot to take pics and/or vids. Oh well.

Monday we woke up and I fixed some biscuits, sausage, and scrambled eggs with onions, bell peppers and maple cured bacon. Then we went ice skating at the rink a block down from my apartment. It is the first time that I've been skating since my broken ankle and I was pleasantly surprised that it didn't bother me at all. Antonio surprised the hell out of me, he took off like a queen chasing after the last pair of Jimmy Cho's. LOL Here are some pics. The last one if of this little kid that was trying to holla at me at the rink. He couldn't have been no more than like 15 y'all. They just keep getting younger and younger or am I just getting older and older?






We, then, ended the day by going to see the 3-D movie "My Bloody Valentine". I will just say that I was more impressed with the 3D effects. The last time that I went to a 3D movie is when you had that white piece of cardboard with one red and one blue focal. The movies weren't even 3d they were just red and blue versions of the movie. They truly have come a long way. They gave us these modern sunglasses looking thing and it really looked like it was coming out of the screen. My Lord, what a weekend.

What would you do for friends? See below video, I thought it was cute.

Happy New Year

I have been really busy but am very excited in what's going on in my life. There will be more on that to come. But I just had to post a couple of things really fast before heading off to bed.

I can't believe it but Antonio bought me a Wii for Christmas. It was soooo unexpected but soooo appreciated. I have been playing it like everyday and have come to realize that it is more of a workout than I thought. The first time I played the boxing, I thought my arms were going to fall off. Thanks Antonio xoxo

Well, until my next serious post, enjoy these (Warning: Strong Language):

My Gift

Ok, I broke down and purchased a holiday gift for myself. I splurged on a Sony HD/HDD camcorder. I have to say that I love it. It records on an internal hard disk and I just transfer it directly into my computer. No more tapes. It can record 8 hours of HD video or 22 hours of standard video. With the high definition, the quality is wonderful. I LOVE IT. I also bought the tripod that goes with it. The tripod has all of the controls for the camera on the handle. So I can just zoom, focus, and adjust from the handle without touching the camera. I will post some videos that I've from it soon. It also takes pictures, here are some of the pics that I've taken with it.

Happy Holidays

Just wishing everyone a very happy holiday season.


I am working on something to post next week. Until then, here are some pics of me and some of my friends at my bowling league holiday party. I was glad that they went with me, we had such a good time.

Queen Lover? /Verve

Let me tell you a little story. Last Friday night I went to a little party in Jersey City and I had noticed this one guy who came in and thought he was very attractive. I was kind of drawn to him for some reason. I mentioned to my friend (the host) that I thought this guy was hot. When he asked me who I told him and he agreed.

Later that night I ran into the guy again and we had a nice conversation with a lot of flirting. I noticed that he came across very shy. He wouldn't hardly look me in the face but I thought it was cute. Then I noticed his ass. OMG! It was a work of art, as if God took six days just to mold that. You already know that I'm an ass man so my infatuation heightened.

Finally he said that he had to go to work in the morning and had to leave. As he was heading out, I told my friend (the host) again that I thought he was the do all, be all of all that is and ever shall be. It was then that he realized who I was talking about. He thought I was talking about another guy. His words were, "Don't you know who that is?". My heart kind of sank. I told him no. He then tells me the name (I won't mention it here for privacy) and it is a VERY well known drag queen in the NYC area. You could have smacked me with a monkey.

I have never really been attracted to very feminine guys, let alone drag queens so this rocked me. But then I thought about it, if my friend hadn't told me, I would have pursued it. Now, if he carried himself, while there, in a way that I was comfortable with and he looked like any other guy that I would have dated, why am I trippin'? Maybe being a drag queen is just "a job". Kind of like someone who puts on a work uniform (McDonald's, UPS, NYPD). Well all of that has me doing some self analyzing; can I really see myself dating a drag queen? If so, would I be embarrassed to tell my friends that I am? Why does that sound so shallow of me?


Don't Forget About Verve

As always, Verve features same-gender-loving artists and supplies a venue for them to showcase their talent. I really hope that people will support this endeavour. I have some vids posted below if you would like to get an idea of the event. Please come out, you won't be disappointed. More info here at the Verve Website

Emory's B-Day Bash

One of my good friends, Emory, had a birthday dinner at Lucky Cheng's. I had never heard of the place but Emory's boyfriend, Germono, said it is really interesting. I had no clue as to what I was in for. Long story short, it is an Asian transsexual/drag queen cabaret theatre. I knew that I wasn't ready when our half naked waitress came and introduced herself like "Hi my name is Japanese Fucking Bitch and I will be your waitress. What will you pussy boys like to drink tonight? I suggest the orgy with the flaming pussy as it is very satisfying.". Umm...... yeah, that is how it all started. The night continued with my friend Derrick being pulled up on stage and practically stripped naked, Emory winning the fake orgasm contest, and the ever popular drunken karaoke. Nonetheless, I had a very good time and enjoyed the food totally and the entertainment was something to talk about.

Here are some pics, sorry for the bad quality but my camera is dead ** sniff sniff **. I have to use my cell phone for pics now.

Verve

As some of you know, I have been working with a group called the Well Entertainment group. They have been working on a monthly function called Verve. I was called at the last minute to help put a little promo together for it. Here is that piece.


The event was awesome. The venue (Brooklyn Society of Ethical Culture) used to be a mansion back in the day and has been converted. The wood craftsmanship in there was just my taste. I wish I could just buy it and turn it back into a home. The food and wine that they served was very tasty, maybe a bit too tasty for some. Some people just couldn't enough. LOL. But the most exciting were the artists, Nhojj and Crystal Monee Hall. I am so sold on them. Several of their songs that they performed that night are now some of my favorite songs. I haven't had time to edit all of the video but here is a taste. This is Crystal singing "Traveler". The compression isn't too good but will be better on the final export.




You can catch these artists again next month (12/20) as they perform again at this venue. But I will keep reminding you here on my blog.

A Letter To Love (Romantic)

Well, you finally did it. I have fallen out of love with you. I can't tolerate your manipulative endeavours. The way that you have people fall for you only to hurt them. How do you manage to entice people to fall for you so? On the surface you are alluring, dangling your gift boxes of empty promises. On the inside you are worm wood; rotting from the inside. You are a virus infecting the unaware and naive. I see your intrinsic self in how you treat my friends. The twisted way you invoke temporary fits on jealous insanity. How do you trick people to keep giving so much of themselves that they are nothing more than a reprobate? What is your opium that causes people to remain with you even after seeing your flaws, your vices - your self? You are a stain. There is no use for you. What are you good for? There's even no use for you in heaven, you're not even welcomed there. Well, no more. This fool has wised up. Farewell to you and the Babylon whore that you clawed your way out of like the miscreation you are. I have fallen so much out of love with you that even the idea of you causes bouts of nausea and anxiety.

Verve

Well, things have been busy lately. As per my last post, I did some work for the PAUSE conference and really enjoyed it. Now, I am working with a group called Well Entertainment Group. They are currently putting on a monthly event called Verve. The first one will be this Friday, November. See the flyer for more info.

Busy As Hell

Sorry that I haven't blogged in a couple of weeks. Things have really just been busy. I will be presenting the speakers at the PAUSE Conference which is an exploration of concept and design within Broadcast and Film. From :30 commercial spots to feature film projects, PAUSE examines the creative and technical approaches of industry leading studios and agencies. I will full access to all parties and events corresponding to the conference. It is going to be a wonderful opportunity to network and see some of the works of the key leaders in the industry. I'm so excited.

I also was able to get my foot in the door to help with a music video being created for Amnesty International. I am excited about this because this is a realm that I haven't had the chance to embark upon. I am looking forward to really using this opportunity to learn new skills and make even more contacts. There will be more information on this later and I will post the finished product here also. So the next several weeks are going to be crazy but well worth the time and effort.

Live

My Lord, I know I've been away for a while but I'm back. I guess I inadvertently took the summer off.

Well to get everyone up to date, I am single again. The last one didn't work out or I should say at least not yet. We are still cool but it was just bad timing for both of us. So we decided to separate until things turn around to avoid growing to hate each other. Work is about the same and the bowling league has restarted. We now have 20 lanes of LGBT teams of four. Wow.

OK, so now something that has really been on my mind. So often when it comes to relationships, many of you have heard me use the phrase, "A love that hasn't lived will never die." In other words, sometimes you may know that the person that you are with is a dawg, they misuse you, cheat on you, take your money and your time and despite all of this, you still have a flame for them. Even though you know in your heart they are not the right one for you, you may have a love for them is not exhausted. Until that love is exhausted, my belief is, you can not truly move on.

Even if you force it by leaving them and possibly even begin dating someone else, your mind and heart will still be distracted. I believe that you will not openly and honestly divulge yourself into that new relationship or new life despite your best efforts. It is not until you allow that love for Mr. Wrong to be exhausted that you are liberated and freed to proceed with your life to the fullest. Of course, this is just my opinion.

Well, the other day I began to think about it in another way. What if you think about it as a way to preserve life? Suppose as long as you have a love for anything (romantic or otherwise) you will continue to exist or live. For example, how many times have we seen or heard of an elderly married couple that once one passes away, the other pass shortly thereafter. Or an elderly person that has passed away shortly after they retired. As if the minute that their love or passion was exhausted, they died.

I have made a vow to myself to keep loving God, family, life, and people.

Hallelujah!!!

As some of you know, I dropped by Blackberry Pearl in the toilet about a month ago while brushing my teeth hastily. Some of you know because you were the unfortunate victims of countless blank text messages and/or phone calls that it would make without my prompting. lol Well, after much deliberating, sweat and tears, I have finally broken down and purchased my new cell phone. Let me introduce you to my Prada. That's right, I said Prada. It was designed by the Prada House down to the leather carrying case and developed by LG. Let me just say that I feel fabulous. lol

It has a touchscreen interface and is smaller than the iPhone. It definitely doesn't have all of the features that come standard on the iPhone but is enough for what I need. It uses the FlashLite user interface which means that it will be easy for me to create my own applications as needed. It comes with a video player that will play mpeg4, H.263 and H.264 videos, music player, document viewer (.ppt, .doc, .xls. pdf.txt), Bluetooth, 2.0 mp camera and video recorder, and radio. I still have to play with it a little more, I just got it on yesterday. I will post some of the images and video from it soon.

Last Minute But Worth It

I just received this email and am trying to get it out ASAP. I definitely plan on getting my tickets for this. This will also be great for those of you who have company coming in town during the holiday season. Tickets must be picked up on Saturday, September 13 between 10 a.m. - 8 p.m.

A night of Ailey for $19.58.
Tickets for this December 4th performance will be sold ONLY
at the Target 1958 Night On-Sale Party at the New York City Center Box Office.
Saturday, September 13th beginning at 10AM.
Learn more at www.alvinailey.org/target1958

Coraline

If you loved "A Nightmare Before Christmas", I think that you will really enjoy this. It won't be out until 2/09 but wanted to help start a buzz.

Dreamgirls - The Lost Scene

You all know that I love the movie Dreamgirls but this was just too funny to me. I like that they keep cracking up in the background.

No Romance Without Finance? / White Party 2008

There has been a question on my mind for quite a while and am just now blogging about it. Sad, I know. But, I was talking with a co-worker a few months ago about her love life and she said that she had met this guy on-line and he seemed really nice. A few days later and after a few more conversations with the guy, she said they were going to meet. They had dinner and he was very attractive a great company. She could find nothing wrong with him, except that he worked as a truck driver. My response was, "So?". She said that she didn't want to date a blue collar worker. I asked, "Even if he makes a decent living?". She said that it doesn't matter. She can't get past dating a blue collar worker.

I was a little thrown back by this and thought of her way of thinking a bit superficial. But then I remember that several of my friends talk all of the time that they would date anyone who doesn't at least bring in what they bring in (money-wise) and that I shouldn't either. After talking with them a bit deeper, I understand that they want someone that is financially stable. In this way they can help bring each other upwards as opposed to having to carry someone. They also tell me that I should be looking for someone that, at least, has a least a masters. In other words, being my equal.

All of that had me thinking, am I too lenient with my dating practices? I usually don't look at someone's Y-T-D gross, net or their investment portfolio. As long as you can pay your bills and we can go out without you coming to me for money all of the time, then I'm cool. I also don't think that you need a piece of paper to say that you are intelligent. What do you think? Do I need to step up my game?


Pictures From The White Party 2008

Election 2008

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