We as Americans treat such a normal part of life as sex as taboo. When in secret, it is one of the driving forces in our culture and has driven technology trends for over a century. Pornography was the first to really capitalize on the first photography and video camera as an avenue of circulation. The first printed material without words to go into circulation was of erotic pictures. And stag films were the most widely distrubuted independent films during the early part of last century. Some of which are some of the most creative and visually stunning pieces that I've seen.

It is also noteworthy to say the back in the 80's when we had the VHS vs BETA wars, that it was because of the lucrative porn industry that switched to VHS that abruptly lead the to the fall of the BETA. It is even rumored that it helped swing the Blu Ray vs HDDVD fight.

It is interesting that even when it comes to computers, sexuality has lead its evolution. In the 1920's, the first computer was created and man quickly personalized the inanimate object. How did they personalize it? ... as a woman as seen in the movie "Metropolis" in 1927. The woman was fashioned after a very beautiful woman and moved very seductively. Of course, part of this was patterned after the idea that a robot is like a woman and is supposed to cater to a man's every need and desire. It has evolved into an even more erotic scenario as seen by this video by Bjork. Yes it's another Bjork video but if you haven't seen it before, it is worth watching.

On top of that, more and more studies prove that people use their computers for porn more than any other use. So if all of this is the case, why are we so prudent when it comes to the discussion of sex?

Bloggers Unite!!!

Well, didn't we have a time this weekend. Above are some pics from last weekend's festivities where I and some of the other bloggers met up in Baltimore. They were Fuzzy, ShawnQt, Warren, X, Joey, Norris, CocoaRican, E, Jared, Andre and Darius.

There are so many things that can be said about this weekend but I will try to make it quick. I have to first say that for so many gay people to be together for a whole weekend, there was no shade (that I seen anyway) and I can honestly say that I enjoyed EVERYONE's company. You guys know that Fuzzy, Shawn and X are my boys but I love me some Cocoa, and Jared for their quick wits and matter of fact sensibility. Not to mention that they are funny as all get-out. Warren for his cool, collected, giving and will disappear on your ass personality. lol. Norris with his fine, country (oh I mean southern) self. Darius is just so sincere, loveable and huggable. I love he. I thought E would be more talkative than he was based on his blog but he would say little things on the sly that was too funny. Joey is just a crazy nut but yet regal. Don't get it twisted though he will have you cracking up and don't get him and Jared together.

My favorite quotes from this weekend:
"And let that be the reason."
"Honey, you can mix that alcohol with some juicy-juice if you want to but I'm telling you, you'll only have Dimetap."
"You can have those eggs too but those bitches didn't crack when I bought them."
"Florida. Why is my name Florida?!? That's the name of a state."

On another note, this is still too funny to me.


Fuzzy's B-Day Bash/Fighting Sides/Update

Fuzzy's B-Day Bash

Fighting Sides
Ok, sorry that it took me so long to post this topic but had to think about how to word everything. For those who read the "Wanderlust" post. Here are the words to the song. This will better lead into my post.

"I am leaving this harbour,
giving urban a farewell.
Its habitants seem too keen on God
I cannot stomach their rights and wrong.
I have lost my origin,
and I don't want to find it again
Rather sailing into nature's laws
and be held by ocean's paws

relentlessly craving
peel off the layers until you get to the core.
Did i imagine it would be like this?
Was it something like this i wished for,
or will i want more?

Lust for comfort suffocates the soul
this relentless, restlessness
liberates me.
I feel at home whenever
the unknown surrounds me.
I receive its embrace
aboard my floating home.

Relentlessy craving wanderlust.
Peel off the layers until you get to the cor.e
Did I imagine it would be like this?
Was it something like this I wished for,
or will I want more?

From island to island.
United in movement.
I enjoy it with you

Can you spot a pattern?
Relentlessy restless
Restless relentlessy
Restless relentlessy
Restless relentlessy "

Anyway I have been feeling very torn lately between who I view myself as and who I really am and who I want to be. Specifically, am I ready for a relationship now? After my roommate left and I started living alone for the first time in over 10 years (caring for my grandmother /relationship/grad school roommate). I also seemed to have had a change of heart regarding relationships. Prior to him leaving, I wanted one so bad that I could hardly stand it. Now, I am not sure what I want. I'm not sure if it is because my life has had a couple of huge changes so fast and my emotions/mind hasn't totally absorbed it or what. All of this comes at the strangest time to me. I have had so many people express interest lately that it just makes me want to yell, "Where were all of you when I was looking". lol

As of late, I have been .... exploring my freak side in more ways than one. Although that phase is becoming old, I still like being able to do whateva I want, wheneva I want and howeva I want. At the same time I wander if that is really me or just someone that I want to be maybe even temporarily. Sometimes I become shy about it because I wonder how others will view me with some of the things that I am doing. Then I’m wondering if this is just a phase. I feel so pre and/or adolescent, wondering what my peers may think.

So on to what’s new. I went to Edwin's B-Day bash a couple of weeks ago and I carried on. I was very .... friendly that night. Despite all of that, there was a guy (Roberto) who expressed interest. There were others too but Roberto seemed to be the most sincere. I gave him my number thinking that he would be like most people and forget who I am when they sober up but to my surprise, he called. So last weekend, he wanted to come in town. So I gathered some friends together and we hung out on Sunday going to the GLBT Expo at the Javits Center, Brunch and Dinner. A full day of fun but I realized that he was becoming VERY attached. Then at dinner he tells us that he has only messed with one other guy. All of my friends got twinkles in their eyes but I just became concerned. Then I found out that I got his age mixed up in translation and thought he said 35 but he is only 25. But the fire was on when we got back to my apartment. He evidently had been waiting a long time and it showed. Anyway, we'll see what happens with him. I will keep you informed but for now here are some pics/vids.

I just couldn't refuse this. Sorry for it being sideways. This is Roberto, God bless his heart.

Family Pics, Shawn's B-Day Brunch, Hasan's B-Day Brunch, and Edwin's B-Day Party

Sorry for yet another post this week, but was slow on posting these pics and had to put them up before I was tortured by my family and friends. Don't forget to see the previous post to get an idea of what I will be talking about in my next post. Here is one branch of my family tree.

Björk - "Wanderlust"

I know that most people I know, aren't really into Björk's music but you have to give it to her for creativity. It is so weird because even though I read about the making of this video a while ago, I didn't know what it was about. As always, I stood in anticipation for a Björk video. But this morning on the way in to work, I finally figured how I wanted to word my next post. When I saw this video I couldn't believe how close it is to the topic I wanted to post. Anyway, out of curiosity, I was wondering if you would post what you get out of this video before my next entry? This isn't to try to tell someone they're stupid or off base of anything like because we can all get something different out of it. It is purely just for curiosity's sake. Click on the image below to view. It may take a few minutes to load.