I'm Done With You

I know that this is a double post but is of significance in my life so I am posting anyway. LOL I did something that I probably shouldn't have done. A friend of mine had left his phone laying down and I had an idea that he may have been talking about me behind my back. I thought this because his demeanor has changed around me but couldn't think of any intrinsic reason why. After going through his sent messages, I found my suspicion to be true. I found this message, "There is such a strong dislike for ty that I can't even look at the thing." Yes, I know, right?!? I was blown. On top of that it was sent to PEOPLE that I don't know. The fact that he said my name leads me to believe that they have talked about me before. What is even worse is that it was unmerited. I haven't done ANYTHING to him. When we finally talked and I told him that I saw the message, we found out that it was sent because of a misunderstanding primarily on his part. I had asked him if he was going to a friends event and if so if he needed a ride since we come from the same way. He told me that he was going to just catch the bus. When it was time to leave I announced that I was about to leave and waited for a response from him but he didn't move or say anything so I left. But he wanted me to ask him again if he needed a ride. ?!? I told him that I had already asked and it was an open invitation for the whole event. He said that he didn't think that he should have to beg me for a ride. Long story short, we understood where each one was coming from. But I am so upset that instead of talking to me about it, he went and badmouthed me to all of these other people. Some of you can probably already figure out who I'm talking about but I am sooooo through with him and his shit. It is always something and have decided to exlude him from my life. I don't wish anything bad to or for him but when it is this complicated even as friends, it is time to move on.

New Job

As some of you already know, I have started a 9-5 job on 1/2. I embrace it with mixed emotions. I have really become use to the freelance hours and working when I want as opposed to "you better be there by....". I love the fact that it is a steady check with benefits... OOOOOO child, benefits! Sorry, just had a Madea moment. I am kind of displaced because it is all the way in Parsippany, NJ. It takes me about 45 minutes of driving to get there. The commute itself really isn't that bad but it is the fact that I am going away from the city. I love the city and know the city a hell of a lot better than Jersey. So when I want to do something after work, I must drive the 45 min. just to get back to my place and then however long it takes to get through the tunnels at that time of rush hour. Thursday, it took me 2.5 hours to get from my job to Queens with the fastest part of the journey going across town in Manhattan. So of course that discourages me from wanting to do anything in the city after work.

It also makes it hard when considering a new apartment. I am crossed between whether I should just become the normal Jersey resident and try to live and play here as much as possible. The problem with that is I don't know a lot of people here and I spend a lot of time on the weekends with my friends in Queens. The option is to get a place in Manhattan and deal with a lengthy commute so that I can be more central. More to come on that.